One of the scariest things a person can ever do is to be completely honest with the things that they do. I had considered doing something like this with the start of the new year, which I have tried to dub the start of a new and healthier me, but I didn't follow through. Then I saw that a friend of mine decided to do the same idea (I am sure a lot of blogs popped up with the same purpose, seems to be the way of things in the technology age) and the more I thought about how I want to progress this year, the more I realized a blog would help me focus, especially as I try to really buckle down this time.
So first, some info... I am Midalah. It is an online name, one that I have adopted as a stage name as well as one I most identify with anymore and have for almost 9 years now. Prior to that, I was Jourdana, or Jordy, a name I do still answer to. I've been Jourdana/Jordy for 12 years to many. I am a geek, I fully admit that. I enjoy doing things in fandom, I go to conventions, I dress in costume, I like to sew, I love to write. I role play and I bellydance. I am 30 years old, will be 31 in February. I live in Pennsylvania and I have an adorable puppy.
Currently, I am single. To me, right now, it's not painfully so. I was in a relationship for four months and we recently broke up due to wanting different things out of life. It was the first time I have ever been the one to break up with someone, but doing so just before New Year's made me realize that I wanted to focus on nothing but me in 2010. That begins with losing the weight I've been plagued with all my life and becoming all around healthier. I figure that if love comes my way, it will, I can't force it and I won't. I need to focus on me for awhile.
I am going to be as honest as I can in this blog. Posting weight, perhaps posting pictures of my progress. We'll see on that second one. Posting measurements as well. One thing that I know for me is that I am curvy. I am always going to be curvy. I'm one of those people that is going to be on the heavier end of things even once at my goal weight. I won't be a size 2. I don't even know if I will be a size 8 when I am done. I'll be happy to be a size 10 or 12. I will have moments of frustration, moments when I can scream and rant. There may even be days where that's all this blog will have, but it's one step in this journey I am taking.
A part of me can't believe that I am actually doing this, but there have been times I considered trying out for "The Biggest Loser" and it would be no different then being on national television and taking this journey. Maybe this will be easier then that because I can hide behind a computer and not face millions watching me.
So the journey begins...
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