One New Year's Resolution...

I try not to make New Year's Resolutions because I rarely follow through with them, but one that I want to at least attempt is to update this blog with my progress at the very least once a week if I can't every few days. I need to hold myself accountable more often than I do.

My arms are so shaky

I can barely move right now. LOL. That's okay though. I needed a good workout. I am the first to admit that I am one of those people who has a hard time during the holidays with feeling very down. Today was a major combination of stress, depression and just blahhhhhh. When I got to the gym I was just so meh that I had no desire to workout, but I had promised that I would be there to workout.

I went to body flow and did that, then went down to work out. I am glad that I did. It was nice to meet a few new people and work with Rikki. Definitely an inspiration there. Right now, though, I am so tired. My arms are shaky. I started giggling (earning an odd look from Anubis too) because I was trying to drink my milk and I noticed that my arm was trembling.

It was good to work out. It did help a little, though my mind started working non-stop on the way home. I just need to keep plugging away. I'll get there.

Tonight I have to wear a monitor on my finger while using my CPAP. Yeah cause THAT'LL be comfortable. Ah well on that end. At least I am using it regularly again and it's helping. Still tired a lot, but I think that's stress. That'll start to work out too as I get to the gym more like I need to.

That person…

I didn’t work out today, which I am bummed at myself about but my leg started bothering me yet again. I wish the cold didn’t affect that old injury so much. Tomorrow I will go for Zumba.

I met with a woman for my fitness evaluation, something I wasn’t *entirely* looking forward to because I’ve not been the best about my workouts and such. However, once I met her I was very glad to have it. I knew from my last Fitness4Ever appointment that she had lost quite a bit of weight and then became a fitness coach. So I figured it would help me be motivated. After I saw her, I knew it was definitely possible.

Talking to her was great as well. We didn’t get to do the fitness evaluation because of the computer updating and taking forever, so we just talked about different things. It was really nice to talk to someone who has been there and managed to take the weight off and has kept it off. It gives me a lot of motivation to get there and to realize that if I have a set back that it’s not the end of the world.

I’m going to work out with her on Thursday with a few others that she works out with too. So it should be fun.

As I was driving home, I was thinking about something. I look at others who are extremely overweight and do nothing to change themselves and I sit there and think that I don’t understand how they can allow themselves to get that heavy and not do anything about it at all. And I say that I never want to become that. Then I realized that I never want to become the person that others point to and say they don’t understand how I allow myself to get that heavy and not do anything about it. And that they do not want to become what I am.

I would much rather be the person like the woman I met today. Someone that others look to and say, if she can do it, so can I.

Satisfaction is in how the clothes fit

Even if they are getting too big. Actually, I am quite happy. I bought a new winter jacket just before Christmas last year and I was *just* able to zip it, but I could tell it was on the tighter side. I’ve had it out for a couple weeks now to be ready for colder weather and I decided to wear it today since it went from a balmy 60 some degrees yesterday to 34 today. I was pleasantly surprised to find that the jacket was not only looser on me and that I could zip it up with out it being a bit too tight, I have enough room beneath it to layer if necessary.

I knew I was losing weight, I could see the difference even in pictures taken six months ago, but I don’t think you *really* know just how much until you try something on that you haven’t worn in awhile.

I’m rather proud of myself this week. I went to Zumba on Monday, introduced Alida to it, but then I also went yesterday. Granted, I had to leave the class 15 minutes before it ended because of my foot issues, but I still went more than once this week.

Keeping to a schedule has been difficult. My attempt to try and get into a normal routine is going to be, I think, circuit training Sun, Tues, Thurs with Body Flow then Zumba on Mon, Wed, Fri and Saturday as my rest day. I need to decide if I am going to go to circuit training tonight or wait to pick up on the routine on Sunday. I’ve been really tired lately and I have been having difficulty motivating myself to go do circuit training at all.

I think that I will forego circuit training tonight, motivate myself to go to Zumba on Friday, then start the “normal” routine on Sunday and stick to it. Sticking to it has been hard, but as I find more encouragements it’ll come easier. It’s just getting to the point of finding more encouragements.

I’ve been having issues with four plantars warts on the bottom of my right foot on the ball of my foot. That’s been a deterrent for me, unfortunately. They are EXTREMELY painful and since a lot of what I want to do is on my feet (ie. Zumba and body flow), it leaves me feeling less than enthused about putting myself through *that* pain in order to get the muscle pain of working out. I used some of the freeze off stuff last night, so we’ll see if that starts to work. I may end up having to go to the doctor to have them surgically removed. 'Til then, I am just suffering through the pain.